Spanking Letters - Volume Thirty-Two
 

Readers Note: These letters are all real. The actual identities, parts of stories and names are disguised. I post letters so that we can share with each other and not feel so alone in our passion for spanking. These letters can be helpful for you to learn from the experiences of others.

Rest assured that your email to me is strictly confidential. If you DO NOT want me to post a letter (even in disguise) please tell me. Your limits, boundaries and discretion are always my first priority. I thank all of you in advance for your thoughtful and insightful emails. Together we can learn from each other.
- Jacqueline


Dear Jacqueline,
I have been a very satisfied client of yours for almost two years now. I have always known that my feelings and thoughts about spanking meant there was something different about me. I wasn’t sure what that meant until I began visiting you. What I have learned from my experience is that spankings are something like a basic need. It is embedded in my persona, and it is a need that satisfies me to a very high level of happiness.

For me, spankings represent something nurturing and very fulfilling. What I would like to know is why some psychologists determine spanking as a form of deviant behavior or sexual problem?
- Rose

 

HI Rose,
I’m wondering if you are referring to the recent study that stated: “researchers have uncovered another damaging consequence of spanking: risky sexual behaviors, or even sexual deviancy, when the child grows up.” (Feb. 28 (Health Day News).

This study is about the effect that spanking has on early childhood development. Perhaps you are reacting to the fact that these reports casually interchanged spanking with deviant behavior. Take note that there were many kinds of behavior seen as problematic in that study including aggression, criminal and anti-social behavior. I do not condone any kind of violence and I’m actually very opposed to the idea of spanking children. However, I deal with adults and the impact that the adult spanking fetish has on our lives as adults. In actuality, most credentialed psychotherapists take the stance that spanking and fetish behavior is OK as long as it is kept between two consenting adults. The only time that fetish is seen as problematic is when the spanking behavior takes on obsessive-compulsive qualities. Oftentimes it is then treated as an addiction.

Spanking may be considered troublesome if a person cannot ever engage in sexual, intimate activity unless spanking play is overtly present. Most of us hope and would like to have the ability to engage in ‘vanilla’ sex and be present with our partners without spanking. However, in reality, many spanking fetishists do report a need to think about some aspect of spanking in order to achieve orgasm. Some ‘experts’ see that inability as an issue; I personally believe that our private thoughts are our private thoughts. We can think about whatever we like; just as long as we don’t act on anything that would be inappropriate to the occasion. Ideally it’s great to have a partner who shares our enthusiasm for spanking but even then, sometimes it’s nice to just express love in a more conventional way.

You have certainly come a long way since we started to meet. I remember you were so timid about wanting to get spanked and barely knew how to communicate your need. The fact that you now say that you are fulfilled by spanking play is very gratifying to me. We have spent so much quality time together and I really feel honored that you chose me to lead you down the path of your own spanking exploration.

We have indeed found that good old-fashioned OTK spanking does in fact provide some of the feelings of nurturing that you lacked when young. Many people come to me and say that they want to be spanked because they ‘feel they got away with too much when they were kids.’ While they may think that it is the case, it is probably more accurate to say that they experienced feelings of being neglected or even ignored.

Spanking is really about that feeling of being held, cared for and corrected for your own good. There is an enormous bond between spanker and spankee when the two are connected. I guess that’s why many people equate it with sexuality. Even though spanking play is not about sex or sexual contact the feeling of closeness is established when panties are pulled down and bare bottoms are smacked with care.

Rose, I’m glad you found an outlet for spanking in your sessions with me. You know that once you step in my door you will be welcomed, treated with respect and have a guaranteed great spanking experience. You are in an occupation that requires absolute discretion; another reason I know that you originally sought to explore spanking with me.

You are correct that spanking is deeply embedded into our personas and the charge we get from spanking play will never go away. That’s why I always contend that people who like spanking need to understand and get to a place of acceptance.

Thank you again Rose and I look forward to a long, fun spanking relationship with you.
- Jacqueline


Jacqueline,
I just wanted to take a few moments to comment on “Real Couples, Real Spankings: Volume 3' DVD” that I recently purchased. I have to say that this is absolutely the BEST Pacific Force DVD that I've seen so far! I didn't anticipate feeling this way, as I did not know what to expect. After watching this DVD, I was at a loss for words! I will try to express, but I fear that my words will not do it justice. 

The interviews with the two couples were downright fascinating! I listened intently, absorbing everything I possibly could. I found it interesting that Marcus and Wednesday never really discussed spanking prior to engaging in it; one day he just spanked her. Even though Wednesday received some stringent punishment, I thought it was very sweet of Marcus to tell her to breathe during the spanking as he stroked her hair. When Wednesday began to sob uncontrollably, Marcus seemed to ease up a bit. His voice and gentle tone appeared to evoke the perfect emotional and mental response. The fact that he is so soft-spoken made it more obvious to the viewer that the spanking was done purely out of love.   
 
I was equally enthralled watching the second couple on this DVD. Something that Kirk said really struck me to the core.  When Kirk said that he would have given up spanking for his wife, I was extremely moved. His patience and understanding exemplifies the love that he has for her. Because of his generosity, Suzanne came around and now she shares his love for spanking. Suzanne's spanking was also intense.  Much like Marcus, Kirk spanked out of love and is simply taking care of his wife; he wants nothing but the best for her, as it should be. I also enjoyed hearing Suzanne talk about how spanking is just one more way for them to be intimate with one another and how they're scoping out new places to spank each other, NICE!!! I really hope that others take their lead and that they inspire more individuals to find their way on the long path from shame to ecstasy.

The “Real Couples” DVD demonstrates the type of trust between couples that I've only read about but have never been fortunate enough to experience myself.  Perhaps I've expressed this to you before, but please allow me to say it again - Pacific Force has truly set the standard for spanking DVD's. Your DVD's are unsurpassed. Those spanking DVD's from other companies lack substance, creativity, style, and imagination. Thank you for such an informative site.

Wishing you all of the best,
- Lena

 

Dear Lena,
I’m speechless. I am very touched by your words. Thank you so much for that heartfelt email.

Spanking is something that has been with me every since I can remember. I honestly thought it would be the secret I took to my grave. Instead, this sexual fetish has impacted ever aspect of my life and my lifestyle. It has opened up so many doors and avenues for me. Creating Pacific Force was an act of passion. I was extremely fortunate to find the perfect partner to help me bring my dreams and goals to life. Vinnie and I are extremely dedicated to creating quality spanking products that entertain as well as educate. “Real Couples, Real Spankings #3” is a true reflection of the direction we are taking our company.

Both couples in this production are really and truly into spanking. They are not just acting for the camera. In fact, the couple in Scene 2, Kirk and Suzanne, were actually filmed over two years ago. Their interview was groundbreaking in that it provided a clear example of how a couple can successfully adapt spanking into an existing relationship. Suzanne was originally opposed to participating in adult spanking but her love for Kirk allowed her to open up to the idea. The intense level of play demonstrates her level of dedication to the spanking lifestyle.

The scene with Kirk and Suzanne was so good that it actually took me two years to find another equally interesting couple to complete this DVD. I was very happy when Wednesday and Marcus approached me and stated that they specifically wanted to participate in a Pacific Force “Real Couples” production. Their interview and subsequent play reflect the bonding of spanker and spankee. Wednesday’s cathartic expression of tears and subspace captures the deep emotional impact that spanking interplays can foster. It’s reminiscent of very deep therapeutic work.

It takes guts and commitment to share something so personal with the rest of the world. It is my hope that other couples will be inspired to come forward to and talk about their spanking relationships. I think these interviews are very beneficial to all of us.

Thank you again for your thoughtful comments and support.
- Jacqueline



Hi Jacqueline,
I recently purchased the DVD "Girls Who Liked to Get Spanked". I just wanted to thank you for it. I could really relate to the scenarios. Both of these ladies wanted to get spanked but were shy about fulfilling their needs. The scenes gave me some good ideas and lots of hope. Of course in this DVD the ladies got the spankings they craved.

I haven't shown my husband yet but he knows I ordered the DVD. I tell him I like the idea of being spanked over his but he doesn't seem to take it too seriously. He sees it all as a joke. That hurts my feelings and it makes me not want to say anymore. Yet, like the girls in the DVD, I want to experience a real spanking.

Any thoughts?
- Susie

 

Hi Susie,
Thank you for having the courage to reach out to me. Generally I get these letters from men asking me how to get their wives to spank them. However spanking goes in both directions so you are not alone. Many couples are in a situation where one person is a born spanko and the never even entertained the thought. To outsiders, our fetish often appears as silly. However all of us who love spanking understand how strong our needs lie.

I would encourage you to have him get "Real Couples, Real Spankings #3” and watch the second scene with Kirk and Suzanne. As you read in my previous letter, I think it’s one of the best examples of how relationships like yours learn to incorporate spanking into their lives.

I have successfully met with and counseled many couples in your situation. I bet your husband just doesn’t understand. I think it’s time you really tried to communicate with him. He’d also like the results. A few minutes over his knee will get you so aroused that I’m sure you’d be happy to do some sexual things that he would enjoy. It’s a win/win situation.

I’m glad you emailed me, as I know there are many women out there with similar issues. As females, it’s harder for us to discuss sexual matters. We were always taught to please and allow our men to take the lead. However, sometimes we need to work past our fears in order to get our needs met.

Please email again and let me know how I can help.
- Jacqueline



Dear Jacqueline,
I have a question for you. Is it not true that bare bottom spanking is the core of the spanking experience? Is it not true that a female who is receiving a spanking should expect to have her panties pulled down? Why then do I find that many females are reluctant to bare their bottoms when they are over my knee? I spank many ladies for fun and I’m surprised that so many put up a fuss or tell me right from the beginning that they are willing to take a spanking; even a hard spanking; but I need to administer only to a panty clad bottom?

As a male spanking devotee, it is my delight to spank on the bare. Of course I like to build up the spanking and start on the skirt, panties and make my way to the bare bottom. However, if I stay just on panties, it’s like going to a restaurant and only having an appetizer. I want the full meal.

Please advise how I can get these women to bare their bottoms on the first try.
- Frank

 

Dear Frank,

Oh boy dare I say it? Your letter makes me want to take you over my knee. You sound like a true spoiled brat and you know what happens to impatient brats…

You mention that you get to spank many women. I’m not sure how that happens but the fact that you get to play is something that many would envy. It appears that you do a good amount of playing on a causal level. That’s fine. But let me explain a few things to you.

Spanking is a lot like sex. Baring a bottom during a first spanking experience is the same as going all the way on a first date. Some women are cool with that but most are not. Women are different than men in that they are generally modest. It’s a big deal to disrobe. I understand that bare bottom spanking is an important part of the ‘embarrassment’ of receiving a spanking but there are other facets as well.

When a female allows you to spank her, she is really offering you a gift. She is making herself vulnerable to being over your knee and letting you take charge. Many people into spanking do get off on the humiliation of the nudity but many do not. Especially women. Women like the idea of being taken to task by a strong man who is spanking for her own good and correction. In many ways the male spanker takes on the father figure role and good man that she is yearning to have. It’s not about having her bottom exposed.

Spanking relationships are like any other. They take time and patience to develop and grow. Oftentimes a first spanking experience is very much like a first date. Two people are getting together to see how they relate to each other. A pure spanking relationship is as complex as any other. Two people need to connect intellectually, emotionally and physically. The combination needs to be right in order for a true experience to take place.

I think you need to be fair and give these women a chance to trust you. Once they feel comfortable, you can then discuss the subject of baring the bottom. Talk about their feelings and do your best to make them feel desirable and attractive. Tell them how much you enjoy bare bottom spankings. If they perceive you to be genuine and respectful, chances are good that in time they will give you the gift of delivering bare bottom punishment. This needs to be ascertained ahead of time and never done spontaneously. You are not entitled to just pull down a grown woman’s panties. That is highly rude.

Now my question to you: What’s so bad about a panty spanking anyway? I happen to think the idea of a panty-clad bottom is very sexy. It also feels very good to spank on fluffy soft cotton or silky smooth nylon. Semi-nude is almost more exciting. You can see the outline of the bottom and feel the shape. It’s exciting to imagine the nakedness without actually seeing it in graphic detail. It also gives you something to work towards. Again this is the same as having sexual foreplay with someone a few times without actual intercourse. Anticipation leads to a more fulfilling experience once it actually occurs.

Count your blessings, Frank. Spanking interaction is very special. We all need to appreciate the moments we have rather than agonizing over our own agendas.

- Jacqueline



Hi Jacqueline,
I really need your advice and help on something. I have seen your website, and can tell you are all about spanking, and you definitely believe in it. I am 34, and I was never disciplined growing up at all, instead I got everything I wanted. My mom didn't raise me. My aunt did, and she spoiled me instead. I am married to a wonderful man, and he spanks me all the time because of the way I act. He tries to spank me for real, but when he’s spanking me, it feels more sexual. It doesn’t feeling like he’s teaching me a lesson.

About a year or so ago I wrote my aunt who so called raised me, and really spilled my heart out to her. I told her how out of control I am, told her all the things I am doing now like: lying, temper tantrums, not listening, not taking no for an answer and being a general spoiled brat. I begged her to make up for lost time: “When I see you Aunt Edith please take me in my old room, and give me the spanking of my life. I really need one.” I told her if anyone can teach me a lesson it is she.

My aunt wrote me back a couple of weeks later, and totally turned me down. It really hurt me. I really want this from her, and need this. Please let me know your response and how you think I can make this happen.
- Christy

 

Dear Christy,
You are a grown woman now and for us grown ups, spanking is our fetish. We do it for a variety of reasons in our adult lives. Sometimes it is sexual as it is with your husband. Sometimes it may be more punishing as it might be with an adult female spanking top. However, no matter what kind of spanking it is, an adult activity done with two consenting adults. Your aunt is not a consenting adult. She doesn't understand. She is not into it. You simply cannot involve your aunt in this kind of encounter. It would be completely inappropriate and a recipe designed to cause you a world of problems.

First and foremost you are guaranteed to make her feel very uncomfortable. Your aunt would feel coerced and put on the spot. And please consider the incestual message. Asking your aunt to spank you would be the same as asking her to have sex with you. Though they are different, spanking is still a sexual turn on. Remember, it's OK to fantasize about whatever we want. However, putting things into action is not always correct.

Adult spanking is between two adults who enjoy spanking interplay. Both people need to understand that this is an adult sexually charged activity. Even though professionals like myself, never engage in sex or intimate contact with their clients, the motivating force between all fetish activities is the sexual charge it creates. Though you may feel aroused at the idea of being spanked before, during and after the spanking the idea of having real sex in connection with a spanking encounter is not necessary. However, there is an arousing component attached to spanking and all fetish encounters.

We all need to be aware and cognizant of others. It is simply not a good idea to share these spanking desires with people who do not understand or may even feel offended. Some of us have the fantasy of being spanked spontaneously by someone we encounter in our real life such as a co-worker, neighbor or service provider. However, unless these people are true spankos trying to get them to participate without awareness is really coercion.

I understand that the kind of punishment spanking may feel fabricated if given by your husband. You have a different kind of relationship with him. Your best bet is to see a professional Disciplinarian such as myself. This impartial disciplinarian will be able to provide the experience and feeing of real punishment that you are seeking. You can go either with or without your husband. However, before you go anywhere, make sure you feel comfortable with the woman. Make sure she’s experienced and understanding of your needs. If you decide to go alone, let your husband know where you are going. That way you are safer and you aren’t keeping a secret from him.

I’m really glad you contacted me before you made a huge irreversible mistake.
-Jacqueline


Hi Jacqueline,
I'm going to try to write this email in such a way that I don't write a novel. It will be tricky since your DVD's stir up such thoughts and feelings; writing is my outlet. In person, I would probably be less communicative about it.  
 
Okay, on to the DVD...  I stayed up way past my bedtime watching it, and yes it was worth it!!! “Spanked Asian Girls #3” was unequivocally sexy! Some parts of this DVD were also side-splittingly funny! I don't know whether or not providing the viewer with humor was your intention; either way, I laughed my ass off

I've noticed that in many of your other DVD's, the women aren't too resistant while they are getting spanked.  Not true in “Spanked Asian Girls #3”. These holy terrors are the exception! I liked the first scene where Mia throws the telescope on the floor and then says that she's not sorry after all. I was wondering how you would've dealt with that situation had you been her boss. Something tells me that you wouldn't deal with tantrums very well, that's just a guess.
 
The second scene will also be stamped in my memory, especially when Kaiya refers to you as a 'stupid white lady'. Again, too funny! The storyline was beyond original and the spanking looked painful (to say the least). Ahh, but that little conniver had it coming! If I had the choice between eating an authentic Chinese meal or viewing a red, well-spanked bottom, the bottom would win hands down! 
 
Every time I watch a hot spanking DVD I realize that I do not need, do not only desire... I yearn. I ache for the spanking experience that I've never had but know deep down that someday I will. The reality will be all the sweeter because of the wait.

Thank you for making such awe-inspiring DVD's; again, you're incredible!
- Lena

 

Hi Lena,
That was a great review. I think you said it all.

I applaud the fact that you are doing your own research about what spanking means to you. You are finding happiness in watching the productions and communicating with other spanking people. You are exploring something that has been with you all your life. I think it’s good to examine your feelings about spanking and what part it will or won’t play in your life.

You are a thoughtful young lady and it shows in your writing. I’m so happy that our DVDs and website are guiding you in this very personal, very important self-exploration.
- Jacqueline


Hi Jacqueline,
I was delighted to see the latest volume of letters posted on your website. Thank you for posting my letters.

Barbara's letter piqued my interest (Volume #31). With any luck, Barbara will take your advice and your comments to heart. I really enjoyed reading your utterly forthright response. It's troubling to know that the extreme spanking urge often has the potential to supercede one's own rationality. Sadly, one's lack of vigilance may lead to unfavorable consequences. 
 
Also, I was able to connect on some level with a part of Roger's letter. The notion of fantasizing about someone that you don't like sounded all too familiar.  Every now and then, my ideal spanker is someone whom I find objectionable; she's uncaring and arrogant. In reality, I wouldn't feel comfortable associating with someone who possessed such undesirable traits. Yet sometimes when I'm having sex, she's in my thoughts and, at the risk of sounding obscene and inappropriate, I cum really fast! I have always found that to be a trifle odd.  Like Roger, my spanking fantasies are not in conjunction with the way I behave in real life.  In your reply to Roger's letter, I think you said it best, "Think about whatever you like. Thoughts are harmless. It’s your behavior that ultimately defines you."     
           
Lastly, I appreciate your in depth reply to my email in which I stated my preference of experiencing spanking with another female. For awhile, I thought that I was the only female out there who had the desire to be spanked by a woman but not have it lead to sex; it turns out that I'm not as weird and unusual as I thought. I'm finally able say, with absolute certainty, that I'm no longer encumbered with that nagging feeling of self-reproach. 
- Lena

 

Hi Lena,
Thank you so much for reading the letters section and your thoughtful contributions. I want this to be a forum where people can post their views and share experiences. Glad you could resonate with the letters and comments. It's important to know that we are not alone. I used to feel like I was the only one who liked spanking and it was a very isolating feeling. It's a blessing now to have the internet. It truly opens up an entire new world and brings people together.

Yes, I know what you mean about thoughts and orgasming. Sometimes the thoughts we have are not necessarily what we want in real life. I guess that's why they are called fantasies!!! And fantasies don't necessarily need to turn into realities. Sometimes we wonder why we think the way we do. I think perhaps fantasies and dreams are inter-related. Like dreams, the fantasies are an expression of feelings. These intense feelings are translated by the brain and interpreted as sexual feelings. Fear is particularly powerful and that’s why many women imagine being overpowered and raped. It has nothing to do with the actual event. Rather, it’s the deep intense feelings that the brain connects as an orgasmic release. Who knows? The point is - it's OK to think about whatever you think about!
- Jacqueline



Dear Jacqueline,
Often times when I am being spanked I kind of naturally regress to a teenager. I also have fun “bratting”. I got a chuckle from the letter from Rose out of your spanking letters volume thirty-one “I had a fabulous time laughing and being mischievous during our role-plays. My favorite parts: stuffing my pants with tissue, writing notes on the board, and hiding your paddles. You were great in the way you responded to my mischief. I'm still laughing about how you made me wash my mouth out with that yucky mouthwash.”

I also do a lot of “bratting” with my partner and it has lead to a lot of playful exciting spankings. I sometimes call him Master Mickey Mouse if I want to get a really hard spanking, LOL. I do things like act defiant, and stick out my tongue at him as well.
I love getting long hard pleasure spankings. I am pretty flexible with the type of implements. I love getting spanked with a belt, so much so I am thinking about getting a heavy punishment strap. I also like the flogger, the riding crop and the cane.  I have had a stinger paddle and liked it; I also had the chastiser paddle and liked it.  All of the wooden paddles that we have are broke now, so I bought a metal paddle with holes in it for Christmas. It is small, but it hurts.
- Sarah

 

Dear Sarah,
Yes, I think ‘bratting’ is fun because it’s so interactive. I must confess that Rose gives me a run for my money but that’s why the spanking play is so exciting (and challenging too!)

I am looking forward to seeing you and your reactions when I finally meet up with you and your partner. I think you better get prepared to have a very well spanked bottom.
- Jacqueline


Thank you all for your letters. I enjoy hearing from you. Remember this is a community. Sharing with others helps educate and leads to self-understanding about our unique interest in adult spanking. Feel free to reference and refer to any letter posted.
- Jacqueline Omerta
MISJACQ@aol.com


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